Realization is a weird thing

Do you know what I've noticed? This blog only has 28 posts and I've had it for over a year. Reading back on all my old posts was really painful. There so spread out and scatter brained. I tried hiding my identity but really, no one that I know is going to find this blog. So here's an update to clear things up.

My auntie from my earlier posts is actually my grandma. I'm living with her right now. You see I was living with my mom until I decided to move in with my dad. My dad is uber religious and I found out living with him was actually quite sucky. Not wanting to go back to my mom's or remain at my dad's I moved in with my grandma.

So some of my very first posts was during my first year back to high school. My friends were distant and I felt lonely. But after a while they started opening up to me. Over these last few months of the new year, however, me and my friend Kayla (the person who freaked out at Alyssa, "B") because we just aren't compatible friends.

Over the summer I went and saw CATS, our school put it on and I fell in love with it. Especially the character Mr. Mistoffolees. This is when I started to notice Dayne (who played the role of Mr. Misto). And over the summer my crush grew. I even got to see him, both at Safeway and at the music theater workshop I did. (The workshop was fun until the performance day, I got the partner who didn't know his parts.)

When the new school year began I made notes to change myself.

I got a new wardrobe, a new haircut, a new attitude. I re-joined drama and luckily got put in Mrs. Longly's english class. I've started working on Dayne who, I'm sure, knows I like him. And he's started talking to me more.

Now don't go thinking I changed all for him.

No it was for myself. I love the new me. Everything I've done has been for the better. I'm going to reach my goal of getting a good part in Music Theater and of being an awesome actress. Even now I'm still changing and I know it's all for my better.


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