Sometimes I wonder if I just become friends with people because of my other friends or because my first reaction is so wonderful.
Today one of my friends (we'll call her B) was talking to another one of my friends (let's call her L). B was telling L about how the health nurse was coming in and wondering what question she should ask her. B told L about this hilarious question, she was totally kidding and I don't think the health nurse would care but L flipped. She ranted on and on about how B should only be asking responsible questions and how she was just being imature and stupid.
I felt like yelling at her. I mean, how bitchy was that? It's not that big of a fricken deal. Sometimes I wish she would take the stick out of her ass and just have fun. I hate how she pretends to be the mother of the group she's the youngest one outta all of us. The act is getting old. Even when we're suppost to be relaxing and just being regular teens she has to go and fuck the mood and get all uptight.
Seriously, I love her to pieces but sometimes I wonder how the hell I got to be friends with such a biased jack ass. She isn't open to anything new unless it has to do with her or her future. She's uncomfortable with any concept she can't grasp and just puts it down. I hate how she puts people down. I swear to god, she acts like such a goodie goodie and then she talks about them behind their back! I guess that's hypocritcal of me since right now I'm doing the same thing but I mean gosh, I at least try to be nice, she's a witch!
But it's not like I've ever stood up to her. She'd probably turn the whole damn group against me. Her words are weasles. Bugs that crawl under your skin.
Ok, enough trash talk on her, let me tell you why I still like her and hang with her.
She's really sweet. I know, I know. It doesn't sound like the person I just described, but I swear she can be an angel. She likes helping people out and cheering people up. When B's grandma died she organized a party to help her feel better. And I have to admit, it's nice to have someone so open even if it is trash talk. It's also nice to have someone as level-headed as her at times. Sometimes you need an organized person like L.
So you can see why I'm torn. I'm not sure if I want to be her friend or not. Right now I don't feel like I have a choice. Everyone in the group enjoys her and sometimes I do too. I just don't know what to do.
Another thing, I really wish there was someone who read this blog every once in a while. I don't seem to have any comments at all. Probably no one ever has the time of day to read my blogs. Which sort of ticks me off because if I wanted it private I'd use my journal but I don't want it completely private. I want to be able to get feedback. Oh well, watcha gonna do?
Today one of my friends (we'll call her B) was talking to another one of my friends (let's call her L). B was telling L about how the health nurse was coming in and wondering what question she should ask her. B told L about this hilarious question, she was totally kidding and I don't think the health nurse would care but L flipped. She ranted on and on about how B should only be asking responsible questions and how she was just being imature and stupid.
I felt like yelling at her. I mean, how bitchy was that? It's not that big of a fricken deal. Sometimes I wish she would take the stick out of her ass and just have fun. I hate how she pretends to be the mother of the group she's the youngest one outta all of us. The act is getting old. Even when we're suppost to be relaxing and just being regular teens she has to go and fuck the mood and get all uptight.
Seriously, I love her to pieces but sometimes I wonder how the hell I got to be friends with such a biased jack ass. She isn't open to anything new unless it has to do with her or her future. She's uncomfortable with any concept she can't grasp and just puts it down. I hate how she puts people down. I swear to god, she acts like such a goodie goodie and then she talks about them behind their back! I guess that's hypocritcal of me since right now I'm doing the same thing but I mean gosh, I at least try to be nice, she's a witch!
But it's not like I've ever stood up to her. She'd probably turn the whole damn group against me. Her words are weasles. Bugs that crawl under your skin.
Ok, enough trash talk on her, let me tell you why I still like her and hang with her.
She's really sweet. I know, I know. It doesn't sound like the person I just described, but I swear she can be an angel. She likes helping people out and cheering people up. When B's grandma died she organized a party to help her feel better. And I have to admit, it's nice to have someone so open even if it is trash talk. It's also nice to have someone as level-headed as her at times. Sometimes you need an organized person like L.
So you can see why I'm torn. I'm not sure if I want to be her friend or not. Right now I don't feel like I have a choice. Everyone in the group enjoys her and sometimes I do too. I just don't know what to do.
Another thing, I really wish there was someone who read this blog every once in a while. I don't seem to have any comments at all. Probably no one ever has the time of day to read my blogs. Which sort of ticks me off because if I wanted it private I'd use my journal but I don't want it completely private. I want to be able to get feedback. Oh well, watcha gonna do?
1 comments:
Friendship doesn't always have to come in black or white. There is a whole range in-between. Don't feel you have to jump to choosing whether you want someone to be a friend or not. it might be the case that you talk to them less than people who are a bit more... 'wholesome' (I don't really like that word, it makes me think of oatmeal and brown bread, but i think it fits here), or you don't spend as much time with them because they can irritate you sometimes, but they are still friends on some level.
It's a good thing to have that broad spectrum of friends, on all sorts of levels, they open doors, show you new things, and at the end of the day, the more people there are around you, the wider a support net you have at the times when you need it.
As time passes, the people who really matter will stay with you, and those that irritate or become a bore will just start to slide off. It can be pretty sad when we realise someone who was once a good friend has grown in a different way and you don't share as much anymore, but it is just a way of life.
Treasure the person they were, and if something of that person is there, maybe they're still worth knowing :)
'L' sounds like someone who has a very clear view of her world, blinkered as that view may be. She has conviction if she can get so worked up about her own ways and values, and that's something valuable. She probably needs to open up a bit and be ready to have a little more patience, see things from other peoples' perspectives on occasion, but that's something else that will come with time. After all, we are all of us highly conditioned creatures, we have been told by our families and teachers for decades that things are a certain way. So it can take a very long time to learn there is more to every situation.
Give her the benefit of the doubt, value the person you like, and be more patient with the side you don't, just as you would like to see her be a bit more patient with others.
Or don't, theses are just one person's thoughts after all ;)
heh, i rambled.
have a nice day
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